Dear Future Boyfie…

To the next guy who falls in love with me,

My scars have faded, emotionally and physically. My smile is brighter. My laugh is louder. My heart beats harder. I’m free. Sometimes I might bite my lips too hard and cause them to bleed or I chew my nails too much because it calms me down. I still have anxiety attacks. I still have random breakdowns when everything gets to be too much. I still cry over my ex sometimes. He was my first love, can you blame me? In the beginning I kept looking for him in everyone else. But now I don’t. Every one is different and no one could  be compared to him. I’ll love him, but I won’t be in love with him again.

If you happen to fall in love with me, you’re in for a ride. You’re falling in love with the way I’m too clingy or way too distant. You’re falling in love with my body as if it’s the only masterpiece in a museum. You’re falling in love with my curves. You’re falling in love with the lullabies I sing for you.  You’re Falling in love with the child in me. You’re falling in love with my giggles and laughs. You’re falling in love with my messy hair. You’re falling in love with my moans from kissing my neck. You’re falling in love with my harsh side. You’re falling in love with my past. You’re falling in love with my fears. You’re falling in love with my stubbornness. You’re falling in love with the way I eat. You’re falling in love with the way I breathe. You’re falling in love with the way you can talk about all the scars on my body and tell each person how I got them.

You’re falling in love with me as a best friend. You’re falling in love with me as a lover. You’re falling in love with me and only me.

To the next guy who falls in love with me, Love me right or don’t love me at all.

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24 thoughts on “Dear Future Boyfie…”

    1. Well that’s the way I like it… Well one thing is for sure.. There ain’t any wrong way in love. These are my speculations in my life and the one who loves me for sure will love to love me the way I love. Expecting isn’t that big a fault.

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  1. Those who can keep hold of love even though that love has abandoned them..must not be mocked.For this is the entire depths of their heart that they must climb out of.. escaping from those depths is no easy feat..
    Two people can never be same so if you try to find your ex in your future then you won’t get him. Even your ex is not the way as he was when with you..😃😃
    If you wanna see , see madness see uniqueness see goodness and see whatever you want to without comparing.. you will find him soon😃😃😃

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    1. No doubt comparison is the death of joy and I really do not like tagging him as ‘ex’ or something else. This post reflects the future and the past is something I really don’t want to discuss. It’s not worth a discussion. I feel my life is the most amazing piece of art(a beautiful one) and it’s time to let go of the past and embrace all that awaits. And with the company of friends like you, life has become easy man! Love love and lots of love your ways 🙂

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      1. Yes. Get over the past. There’s nothing left for anyone back in. Forget all the sorrow, fear,anger, depression, failure… Just remember the good times you had and make life more beautiful…. Compare your today with your yesterday… Do not compare yourself with someone else….

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    1. Thank you so much. Happiness is when you give someone a reason to smile and embrace. It’s a pleasure for me knowing that my writings touch and reach the hearts of my readers. 🙂

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